I was in a short, dark hallway with my husband, a younger man. Someone came along & said I needed to give them money. I went to D.D.'s. I'd given him many paintings & colored pencil sketches & thought that maybe I could get one back to sell. I was insulted that they were still on the floor, piled up, not displayed. As I looked through them I got upset. I found one that had even been altered by his friends with a black magic marker. Someone brought me the phone. My mom was on the line. I took the call. She insisted that I stop having sex with my husband. I knew the request was coming from his mom, originally. I got more upset than I already was & growled, "I'm a 40 year old woman & he's my HUSBAND!" As I argued that I wouldn't comply, an angry man came & demanded $5 in a threatening way. I insisted that I didn't have it. He kept shouting at me & threatening me, so I put mom on hold. I took the man to a nearby table where some people were eating sandwiches. I picked up a jar of mayonnaise & showed him that it was $3.
Sometimes my dreams are far more frustrating than my "real" life. I put that in quotation marks because sometimes I'm not entirely sure which is the "real" life. In this dream we see again that mom still hassles me, even after death, haunting me from the depths of my own subconscious (which is probably exactly what she would have wanted.) Again, too, others' disrespect for my art, probably stemming from the frustration of last weekend's pointless market. Being hassled for $5 probably comes from my desire to pull in extra money for my tranny rebuild, particularly as the market was a failed effort at that.
I have another spot set up at a larger market for this weekend. My confidence is not high at this point (<--understatement.) Tomorrow I'm going to drop off a resume at Insta-gator Ranch. One day a week in their gift shop will not only bring in extra money, but will give me an opportunity to handle & learn more about alligators. As I love animals, this could be fun. Besides, alligators are probably far more amenable that those in the local art community.
(Update, 2008; Insta-gator never got back to me at all.)
The picture was taken from my back yard yesterday. It rained pretty heavily all afternoon today (with tornado warnings most of the day.) Its still cloudy out now, but I'm not complaining. We've needed the rain & its still in the 70s these days. The forecast calls for dense fog overnight again, although the local hiking grounds may be too swampy after all of today's rain.