Apologies for the long delay since my last post, but I've had a lot on my plate.
For a while now I've been giving serious thought to quitting art altogether, for the 3rd and last time. I've spent an incredible amount of time, money and energy (both publicly and privately,) for what appears to be nothing. It's been said that the definition of insanity is doing the same things over and over and expecting different results. If so, continuing down this path was truly insane.
On the other hand, if I quit it all, how would I fill my time? For a few days I went into "productive action" mode, focused mainly in keeping the house nice & clean. It does feel good to have things organized and tidied up, but once it's done, maintenance isn't half as fulfilling. I considered getting back into shape, but I have my reasons for not wanting to go there. I ended up doing a lot of nothing. Feeling depressed, sitting on the couch, exhausted all the time & crying a lot.
Fortunately everything seemed to spontaneously improve a little while back & I realized in retrospect that a variety of factors had contributed to the "perfect storm" of my recent downturn; hormonal changes, physical illness, work stress, etc., etc. Although I was glad for that, I know that the approach to my art still has to change.
Since my resources are wasted on the business side of art, I'm quitting "the biz" (at least temporarily,) & going back to enjoying the creative process. Not that I won't engage in "the biz" if someone contacts me about it. I just need a break from all of the pointless runaround, so I'm no longer pursuing most of the outlets that I have been (local shows, publications, galleries, contests, markets, etc., etc.)
The room full of my paintings, photos, etc. that have been collecting dust (& those yet to collect dust,) will make great gifts for friends & family.